Boo flipping hoo.

 I was determined that I would be at the show in April but since we will most likely won't even have a saddle by then we will be pushing to make it in May.  My patience is going to really be put to the test.  I have a horse I have a wonderful horse that likes to learn, enjoys dressage, jumping and is good at it but because of a saddle I pretty much have to just stand there and look at him in the pasture.  boo flipping hoo...I know I sound pitiful but really my patience is not well devloped so this is the real me.  But I guess that is the best you could ask for from readin my blog.  The real me.  I am disappointed, frustrated, annoyed and all I want is a saddle that fits my horse so him and I can enjoy working together. 

It was one thing for the weather to stop us.  I mean there is no way I can control that and even then I did everything I could to get out and any opportunity.  But for a saddle to keep me from my goals is just so frustrating to me.  I mean how is it that hard to find a saddle that doesn't hurt my horse?  I just want to keep track on our goals and our goal was to show in April.  So at this point I won't even have a saddle by then.  Don't get me wrong I am completely stoked about getting fitted properly and I don't mind riding western but I cannot to an eventing derby in a western saddle.

I think the biggest issue is that I NEED A GOAL.  Without goals I become discouraged and hopeless.  A goal is what keeps my mind working.  Otherwise I just start to get caught up in not having a goal.  An awful weakness but again this is who I am.  It makes me a very focused and driven person.  But without a goal it can quickly turn me into a downtrodden mopey person.  Well that is until I find another goal! 

Eureka I think I have it.  I am going to work in our western saddle toward the goal of showing in April.  Who knows maybe by then something may come up even if temporary but could work for this short time span.  Because really the most important thing is not about the show because that is the end result of the work but the important part is the work.  Because the bottom line is Steady needs muscule!  And I can build muscule in any kind of saddle or without a saddle.  So if my goal is just to get him and I fit then well that is a fantastic goal that will lead us to meet any other goals when this saddle problem is settled.

Ok so this post is kind of all over the place.  I started out in the middle of a pity party and throughout the process of the post worked myself through the problem...lol...and ended on a good note.