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| Just a little eye candy for your viewing pleasure. I hope not to sound whiney, first world , spoiled here. That is not my goal. But for the sake of full disclosure I will be plain old honest. I need you all to vent to because you are the minuscule population that can relate to my feelings. Because to own horses is to know disappointment. Because you have the non horse people that are trying to be kind but just don't get it saying "awww that is a bummer you don't get to ride in your horse show this weekend. I know it is hard not getting to do something you want to do." Really? You understand what it's like to spend thousands of dollars, hundreds of hours working, training, planning, preparing for the culmination of one single event then have it disappear for a ridiculous reason? Oh wait, you meant like you didn't get to go to the mall one time and you were sad. OK never mind. |
| I WANT TO RIDE MY HORSE AT TEAM CHALLENGE! Actually I want to ride my horse focus on goals, show regularly and move up levels altogether. So this isn't just about TC. I am eternally grateful that Yankee and Bicardi's mom was so super rad, awesome, crazy brave to pull this off with my horse. So that is not to be confused with my simultaneous pity party. It's gonna be fun and it is going to be cool to see my horse do each phase from a new persective. That I am looking forward to. I hope he is on his best behavior like last year and these two even come home with a kick as story. I really would not be surprised if they end up in the ribbons. I have that much confidence in both of them to pull it off. plus I will be armed with all sorts of cameras to capture every moment. So there is that. |
Ok I got that out of my system. Now it's on to prepping and packing to go down to team challenge to have an awesome time! Hang out with awesome people and cheer on Monica and Steady as they kick ass and take names!!!!!! Meet my weekend drinking buddy and consume copious amounts of alcohol. Go Eventing!
I think very few people, sometimes even in our sport, understand what we sacrifice for what we want and do. It is hard but great things don't come easy. Or so I keep telling myself :)
ReplyDeleteIt's okay to be disappointed and frustrated, but know that it does get better. Always.
Have fun!!
I fight that battle a lot with my friends who are very successful riders....I am so happy for them but jealous at the same time...ya know? Best of luck down there!!
ReplyDeleteIt's good to vent :) Have fun, though, and I can't wait to hear how it all goes!
ReplyDeleteI can SO relate to this! Don't feel bad about it, vent away! It makes so much sense to us horse people, as I am sure we have all been there. I liked the comparison you made in the first paragraph to non-horse people. I always feel guilty for being negative on my blog sometimes, but really, you all understand!!
ReplyDeleteDisappointment, frustration and even jealousy are def part of it, I just hope I can pull it off with some grace! haha <3
So I started a nice heartfelt "We understand" comment about how you are totally okay to vent to us and we get it. Buuuuttt... That's what happens when you try to comment at work and clients all of a sudden flood the clinic. ANYWAY! Don't feel bad, and don't feel bad about being jealous either. You're human! Feel good about it. They're going to do great and it's an experience she'll always be grateful for. It's going to be amazing and when they come back to you, you can look at Steady and say, "I did that."
ReplyDeleteyour feelings make perfect sense to me. Having scrimped my whole life for horse money and then show money I get having to make choices.
ReplyDeleteI totally get how you feel!! Being broke (money and body in your case right now) sucks! However like you said you're about done with school and can start working then things are going to start rocking! Besides your horse is so GORGEOUS! I'm so happy you will be taking pictures of him and Monica. I can't wait to see them. :D
ReplyDeletesounds frustrating - and i think it's totally normal to feel a little jealous while still being 100% grateful. in an ideal world we'd have the resources to do all the things we want to do, but sometimes it's just not possible. sounds like you will have a wonderful weekend regardless!
ReplyDeleteI know it's frustrating, but from stalking your Facebook today I also know it's turning out as well as it could have given the circumstances. Go Steady!!!!
ReplyDeleteI empathize with frustration! (Yes, I'm still alive -- clinically, at least). I have been completely overwhelmed with not so nice things going on in my life (one of the many half-written post drafts in a very long list) and I would love to just have the physical & mental energy to ride with a goal. It's pretty hard when you're dizzy & so tired you can barely stand up for very long, sigh. Ack, sorry, don't mean to have a whine fest in your comments, just wanted to sympathize. Just as BFF & I were discussing last night, life appears to have no sympathy for our convenience & plans!!!! I'm very glad to hear Steady gave Monica an earnest ride & both finished safely. He looks fantastic! I barely even have time to read as much as I want these days, but I am glad to see y'all out (even if you are recovering!) as I scroll down my Reader feed! Feel better soon, take care!
ReplyDeleteI know it wasn't Plan A, and it doesn't lessen the frustration nor ease the jealousy, but from the perspective of the non-owner rider who "gets by with a little help from my friends" I wish for you all the good feelings too that come from having shared Steady with a friend! It was a really lovely gesture on your part and not an easy one. I am so grateful that there are people like you out there!
ReplyDeleteI feel incredibly lucky to have a husband and one daughter who totally get the horse thing - but no one else in my family or my friends come close to understanding. I was so bummed for you when I read about your surgery getting in the way - dang those disposable organs! Can't wait to see more pics and videos from the KY weekend :)
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