Sacrificing sounds all good and fine until it comes down to the nitty gritty and you actually have to give things up. Real things. Things you love. Things that make you happy.
I write for a variety of reasons. Sometimes I write for you. To keep in connection with my virtual, yet very real blogger community.
Sometimes I write for my horses. You know cause they read this blog too and I don't want them to feel neglected! No really, I write for my horses when I work through training issues and document it here to help me improve for their betterment.
Then other times I write for me. To get things out that otherwise kept in might just make me spontaneously combust. Now is one of THOSE times. I am having a hard time sorting out all that is inside of me right now and getting it black and white does help me.
My question is; what would you be willing to sacrifice?
Sacrifice for a time, not forever but even a short time relatively speaking. Could you give up riding? Could you give up spending the quantity and quality time with your equine partner, lets say for a year? Give up competing?
If it was for something that you KNEW would better your life, your families life and also provide more time and money in the long run so that you could ride and compete more than you have been able to in the past. Then could you?
I think most would say yes, that makes logical sense to give up something you love for a short time to allow you to pursue it more passionately in the future. That of course makes logical sense, but it does not make it easy.
I rode today. Like I did last week and the week before. For like an hour one time a week. My horse is lacking the incredibly muscular specimen he was this time last year and I hate seeing that. I see my horses multiple times a day. Mostly just as I am walking up to the back door but when I look at him and don't see him ripped with gorgeous shiny muscle it makes me sad.
I want to keep up with it all but it just hasn't happened. I say about every other week that I am going to ride 5 days a week no matter what. And every time I have more homework, more house projects or more responsibilities that suck my time and energy away.
Like I said I rode today and not 5 minutes in both me and my horse were huffing and puffing. It's sad. It makes me sad. And today I again committed to start riding every day. And it wasn't a second later it occurred to me that I will be out of town the next 3 days. There goes that plan. I will check back in and let you know if my determination continues when we return Monday. I hope so. I know these really are not real "problems" but they are my thoughts and feelings and it is where I am. And the problem is real to me.