The post.

The post about the supposed exciting news will be a toughy to write and that is why it has been put off.  SO much has happened, is happening and about to happen in my life all reguarding the horsey aspect but one thing that was on the list and is now off the list has to do with the mystery mentioned in previous posts.  Well it all fell through and was a flat out mess and makes me kinda hate all humans, except the ones I like of course.  But there was a huge lesson to be learned and this gave me the opportunity to learn it I guess.  I will  divulge the long story, just not right now. I will just tell you that I bought a horse and the horse was taken back all in the same day.  I really can't get into the nity grity of it.  1) because it is still too close and swearing will ensue and 2)  because I really really need to be packing up everything for my family to go overnight to Edinburgh Indiana for my Daughter Elaina's first Combined Test!!  So Many Nerves!  The down side of being mom and trainer is all of the responsibility and all the blame if any is on ME!  If she is not properly prepared, if her pony has a bad day, if she has a bad day it all falls back on ME!  If I was just Mom and not trainer then well I could potentially blame said trainer for any mishaps.  It just seems like a lot of pressure.  Did I mention the fact that there is also the Mom I hope my daughter doesn't get maimed or something nerves?  Oye!  It's a good thing I am a rider/competitor myself and I have learned over the year how to keep my nerves in check NO MATTER WHAT.  I also understand that crap happens.  The only thing I will need to focus on is NOT to be trainer or mom for the day and just be there for her.  It's not like any last minute training or mothering ever helps anyone.  And she needs to enjoy it above all.  But the idea of my baby girl entering at A makes me want to cry tears of pride and vomit well out of nervousness a bit at the same time.  KEEP it together MAN(smacks self across face!) and don't forget to breath.  I tell you what I have never had this many nerves taking my fast ass thoroughbred out on cross country.  It is amazing how these little people have such control over us.

So if you will be at the show I hope to at least say hello.  And if it seems like I completely ignore you the go ahead and smack me to wake me out of my stress coma.   Brrrrrrr and it is a cold one.  Did this last year.  Temps dropped 40 degress over night the night of the show.  It was 80 yesterday and 32 today with a windchill in the 20's ! 

Next posts will probably speak of amazing exciting Rolex plans!!  It is coming so soon!!!  4 days in horse/eventer heaven!