I posted a picture a few posts ago of Steady and I am sure if you saw the picture you know what I am talking about. I will post it again in case you missed it.
There is one smaller one on the other side too.
The glaring white spots on his back. They follow us everywhere telling everyone, "Look everyone this lady is an idiot horse owner and she put her horse in terrible pain!!" I can say I didn't do it on purpose. I can say I didn't realize he was in pain until it was too late. I can say I didn't know and all those things would be true. But it doesn't change the fact that it happened. It doesn't change the fact that I fear that I will do something in the future like that out of ignorance to endanger my horses wellbeing. Sometimes I just don't think I derserve to own a horse. Looking back I can see SO many signs that Steady was trying to give me. It's like I have to be whacked over the head with a 2x4 to take a hint. Hind sight is 20/20 but I wish I had a little insight in the present to prevent such problems.
I can give every excuse in the book to try to justify why I didn't know but it doesn't change the facts. That everywhere I go and anytime someone sees my horse including me it is like the scarlet letter painted on my horses back. That I am a f@#&ing idiot!